True Friends

I wonder if anybody feels this as much and as often as I do. That would be overstating what I really am experiencing. But sa it has become more and more evident to me, kahit mababaw ang kaligayahan ko, masakit ako makaramdam ng sakit.

Hindi naman sa sakit ang nararamdaman ko. It really isn't that. I just feel so small. One of my sincerest wishes is to matter into peoples lives. Oh well, I'm only ever in their lives for short moments, it shouldn't surprise me anymore that I matter so little. Maybe I should focus my efforts.

Doing that just makes me feel so selfish though. I know this may seem like quite a claim, but I love my friends. Many though they are, they are far in between, and it becomes thoroughly difficult for me to make them feel what I want them to feel. Gusto ko ng best friend. Mundo wala ba diyang available?

Dapat sana meron diba? Dapat sana meron na, pero ang layo mo, hindi lang layo sa literal. Nahihirapan narin yata akong abutin ang puso mo. At nabibitak-bitak narin ang puso ko dahil sa lamig ng mundo. Hindi ako masaya.